You might have already seen on Instagram, but I wanted to give a more detailed update here: WE BOUGHT A HOUSE!!! I still can’t believe it. You may all remember when Dan and I had made the difficult decision, over a year ago, to back out of contract with the house we’d been building since June of 2020, because there had been a fire in the crawl space 3 days before closing. We were devastated and seriously considered moving forward with it anyway (they had planned to rebuild it), but we felt there was no bigger sign that the house was not ours than it literally being set on fire. Lol. It’s funny to think about now- didn’t feel that way so much then. But now I can look back with gratitude for the way it all went.
In January of last year, we made the last minute decision to move in with a friend of ours, and it’s been one of the best decisions we’ve ever made. I’ve loved having more energy in the house, we’ve saved more money than we would have otherwise, and, though this place has always felt transitional, it provided a perfect little home that we’ve made lots of great memories in. And, as excited as I am to have our own home again, I’d be lying if I said I wouldn’t miss this.
But that’s how I always am. As exciting as the next thing may be, there’s always a little part of me that wants to stay here. In the moment before all the commotion. When things feel settled and peaceful. But I know things will feel that way once again, and by the time they do I’ll be wishing to stay there before the next inevitable life change happens. It’s one of many bittersweet sides to the human condition.
It blows my mind when I think about all the steps it took to get here. The journey we’ve been on to call a place our own. And it solidifies my thinking more than ever in the fact that we really have no control. Life is imperfect and every-changing. So many storylines intertwining, separating, running parallel until they finally (or possibly never) meet. Our story is a very small part of a much larger one, and I think the more we can see it that way, the smaller our problems become.
I read somewhere that the difficult moments in life are not it’s whole- just merely a part. And I know it can be hard to see it that way when you’re in the middle of a tough time, but that’s when it’s more important than ever to remember. “Zooming out” and taking a look around puts things in perspective. Unfortunately, we can’t just zoom out to see the exact beginning, middle, and end, and that’s where trust comes in. Whether it’s trust in God, the universe, whatever higher power you believe in- there is a plan that, if we place our trust in it, will lead us where we’re meant to go.
And, with that in mind, you can trust that you already are where you’re meant to be. You have everywhere and nowhere to go, all at the same time. When life gets hard, it’s not for nothing. There’s beauty in the struggle. It makes us better, more beautiful humans. It helps us see things for what they are: a miracle. Albert Einstein said “There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is.” Not sure about you, but I choose the latter.
So far we’ve painted and moved a few things over, but I’ll keep you updated on how everything comes together. I am so grateful for this miracle home of ours, and I can’t wait to really make it ours. And, whether you’re going through the struggle right now, or are at the light at the end of the tunnel, I hope you find the miracle and trust in your path, too. It makes the ride of life much more enjoyable, just that much more fun, and SO much more beautiful.
And I know what you’re thinking.. leave it to me to turn this into some random philosophical rant LOL. Did you relate to this at all? Would love to hear your home-buying or other miracle stories!
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